5FU, why is our's a love/hate relationship?
Oh I know..
I Love you because you keep the cancer at bay, I hate you, because at what cost?
January 21st,2014
Tuesday
So mom had chemo yesterday and has been feeling terrible ever since this morning.
Her face has been beet red one of the side of effects of the steroid she gets during chemo and she's been throwing up to boot.
She had a little bit of a temp probably due to her tooth infection but it wasn't too bad. Mom's renewed love for smoothies has me thinking maybe I should open a Jamba Juice in my kitchen.
Although I've tried being slick and adding Benecalorie to them, there just is no fooling her, she can taste it everytime and has me remake it without it.
Made her a mango one this afternoon and so far so good.
She broke down today and cried for a good while, she was holding Ellie and began to worry that before long she won't be able to carry her, it took a bit but after a little reassuring she finally calmed down.
Jess invited us to lunch but mom wasn't feeling up to it, she asked us to leave her the baby. But by the time we were about to leave she had changed her mind for the 4th time and said she'd just feel better if we took her with us, Just in case she got sick again while we were gone, so we did.
January 24, 2014
Wednesday
Nurse Betty came by today to take off mom's chemo pump after her 46 hr infusion. It's the first time she's ever come over and found mom somewhere other then her room.
Progress :-)
January 24, 2014
Thursday
All week has been pretty much the same, mom's has been super exhausted and has barely gotten out of bed this week. When she has gotten up it's only been to relocate to the couch in the family room.
Thankfully, It's Thursday
which means Nanny Ellie is coming to spend the night, which makes mom so happy.
Sometimes I don't know what I'd do without visits from you and her. With your visits becoming less and less because of work and school these days, I so look forward to seeing her because although mom's here, some days it's kind of like she isn't.
I've also noticed when ever Nanny comes mom's more like a kid. Nanny really dotes on her, whether it's covering her with the blanket, bringing her cookies or favorite hard candies or even just sitting on the couch with her rubbing her head, I can tell mom feels like she has a mom and it makes her less restless. It also gives me a chance to get things done which is always awesome.
We are truly blessed that God put Nanny into our lives 34 years ago and gave mom a mom and us a nana, because although not related by blood the bond that we all share with her is unbreakable.
January 25, 2014
Friday
Nanny decided to go back home this afternoon instead of early this morning. Was a little worried at first because of the winter blast prediction, but It wasn't to bad.
She stayed with mom and kept the baby, giving me more then enough time to take the big kids out to lunch, an early show and for a frozen yogurt. It was nice to get out and not have to worry about rushing back.
Saturday
Mom's talked to me several times about having vivid dreams and dying this week. I started spacing out her pills a little bit more to see if it helps with the dreaming. As for the dying, I don't really know what to say or do about that. I think when ever she starts having a really hard time using the bathroom the subject always seems to come to mind:-( who knew "not pooping" could instill such fear in us?
January 27th, 2014
Monday
7 days since chemo and mom still hasn't had very much to eat, but has been awake and hanging out with the kids all morning since they ended up having a snow day today.
Even though Ellie has the worst cold ever keeping the two them apart has been nearly impossible.
Made eggs and homemade hash browns & sausage patties this morning for breakfast. Unfortunately, it took me longer to cook them, then she was actually able to hold them down.
On the upside, she saids the pain has subsided a bit. Now we just have to worry about the vommitting and her not being able to go to the bathroom:-(.
Next ct's on 2/17/2014 hoping & praying for a good one.
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